There really
is no need for you blink twice, it won't change. And no, it's not a misspell. I
am a Negastar. But with the birth of the
Transformer Robots, I guess it’s just in style to call me a NEGA-tron instead...well,
at least I was a NEGA-tron.
I used to worry like crazy it made
the people around me go crazy. I was so panicky,
it stressed people out. I was always on
edge. I’d go into frantic and anxiety attacks about things that have not
happened and might actually never happen.
In my travels, if I’m not en route to
the airport at least 4 hours before my flight, I panic and go into a mantra
saying, “I’m going to miss my flight. I’m
going to miss my flight…”
My sister
tries to calm me down and tells me to think positively. And I try! I change my mantra to, “I’m positive I’m going to miss my flight.
I’m so positive I’m going to miss my flight….”
I’d easily get anxious about the
traffic, the weather, the bills, my work, my bosses, my friends, my sister and her
family, my health, my love life (weeeeeh! char!)… I worried just about
everything else. I did mention I was a NEGA-tron!
But I have come to see that every moment
– that moment in a heavy traffic, that moment when my laptop crashes just when
I need it for a presentation, that moment when the queue is sooo long breakfast
has turned to dinner, when a loved one is sick, when I’m amidst strangers speaking
in a strange language in a strange island called Cebu, that moment when I’m slapped
with more work than anyone can handle - is where God is. And to complain, to worry, to panic, to stress
IS to show ingratitude to where HE has put me at that moment.
Many times I fail miserably and let my negative thoughts get the better of
me. But I bounce back, allowing God’s grace
and divine providence to work it’s miracle in my chaotic life. I’ve come
to learn that when I offer and lift that moment to my Father, everything works out and falls
into its proper place.
My transformation from being a NEGA-tron
is a slow one. But I’m moving along and
am so looking forward to becoming OPTIMISTIC Prime!
TRANSFORMERS - Volt in! (Ngyeeee!
Naging Voltes V)
